December 27, 2012

Lost in Translation

Words are very important. They convey meaning, feeling, opinion, and importance sometimes all at the same time. Things get very complicated, however, when what you mean is something totally different from what another person hears, perhaps because they or you are distracted, tired, or pretty much anything else. The point? Having relationships is hard, especially when you are an relationship-driven person such as myself. I am also sometimes impulsive, and do not always think before I speak. Thus sometimes things I say are taken out of context, or taken in context because they came out wrong, and then they hurt people. And goodness, I don't like hurting people. Relationships are so messy. And not even romantic relationships; I don't think I could deal with one of those right now.

Compared to the stress of knowing if you'll ever be 'okay' with someone again, apologizing and asking for forgiveness is easy, at least when you're me. Things I mean get mixed up in tone and impatience all the time, and it's just so hard. So for the rest of my break, I think I'll just sit in my room alone and contemplate if this situation will ever fix itself. I don't want to hurt people. I don't set out to hurt people. But I do, and I'm beginning to wonder if I should even bother dealing with more people than I have to. Or maybe we should just never discuss things electronically again. Ever. Because from all the confusion people have from talking face to face, it only gets worse when you lose tone and body language and emphasis. You can't type in italics and bold print on a cell phone.
The tongue of the wise commends knowledge, but the mouths of fools pour out folly. Proverbs 15:2
That makes me wonder if I should just keep my mouth shut and pray for some more wisdom.

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